Artists Passion

There are days that this saying looms heavily in my mind. What am I doing? There are many things that interest me. A new idea comes my way and I go with it. But how do I ever become exceptional at any one thing if I am constantly adding new pursuits to my career field?

I enjoy editing because it sharpens my writing skills and attention to detail. I learn tremendously when I edit and I also have the honor of reading other people’s pre-published works of art! To think that people trust me with something as valuable as their manuscripts, works that I am certain have been written over many months and even many years. It’s an incredible thought when I really take the time to let it sink in.

I enjoy writing blogs because I feel as though they are a sort of my public diary. I started to focus on bands more, sprinkled with a few other artists here and there: writers, photographers, and painters. I was really excited about it all, at first. Then I realized what I was writing sounded trite, sounded the same. I felt as though I did not know enough about music to write more varying articles. I got down on what I was pursuing, once again.

I also do freelance writing as well. Every once in awhile a short deadline project comes in and all my focus (outside my day job) and personal life becomes key. I have already written an e-book and more than 30 articles, but because they were all considered ghostwriting, my name will not be included in any of my work and no one besides myself, my boss, and the buyer will ever know who actually wrote the material.

In a way, it is great just knowing my work is “out there� in the world. That someone is willing to pay me money for MY words and thoughts. And, buyers are asking for repeat business. It is an amazing feeling especially since I just decided to seriously pursue my writing dreams in January of this year.

On the other hand, to actually have my name on a book, written by me, that people were paying for, this is the dream. I believe that I am doing many of the “other� things to try to work up my confidence, to believe in my talents. To believe that someone would actually want to read and purchase something I wrote. Not just to promote a product, but to read about something I want to write about, something that came from my heart. This is the ultimate dream.

Though I am not giving up writing about artists and promoting others, I do think I need a break from it. Maybe concentrate more on MY artist’s passion. I have been working on a novel since January and whenever a new pursuit comes my way my novel tends to get placed on the back burner.

This is how I feel at the moment. I just need some encouragement.