Never Stop Believing
by: Liane Schmidt
I think one of the hardest things to do in life, is to keep believing, is to keep being your greatest support and best friend when times are toughest, when giving up seems like the easier option.
Again and again, I have to remind myself at these times that: Life is not black and white. The variables stretch far into the grays and off whites of alarm clocks not working, too many appointments in the day, and the need to just be alone sometimes.
But, when you are on the receiving end. When someone tells you they will do something, and they don’t, all you have to go by is their word. All you know is what you were told and what actually happened.
I have tried most of my life to be as understanding as possible to these infinite possibilities. I have done so because my life has been anything but “cookie cutter” (as I am certain many of you have found for yourselves as well) since the starry-eyed upbringing I began with.
After the 6th grade, my vision of the “cookie cutter” life started to fall away, yet part of me has always held tightly to it, knowing that fairytales are possible, if I just believe, if I just believe.
But sometimes, when you believe too much, give too much, trust, your heart is broken, your heart can be betrayed; you risk everything and are not sure if you will ever enjoy the slightest glimpse of any gain. You work for next to nothing knowing that things of value take incredible amounts of time, patience, perseverence, great risk, etc and no guarantees.
But you will continue to do it because you love with everything in your heart. You look in another’s eyes and you believe their words. You believe that they are infinitely beautiful and would never do anything to intentionally hurt you. You know the complex variables will always be there and all you can do is be you and trust and trust and trust.
You continue to do it, because you will not let the world change you.
You do it because you will always believe the best in people.
Take of yourself and eachother.
Best wishes, always.
